Thursday, June 17, 2010
I am felling compelled to share with you all what is going on in my soul. I feel like God is asking for more of me. Its like being invited into deeper waters by God, there is more danger and unknowns but also rich experiences and many treasures...so I am drawn in by my desire for adventure. He is the coolest guide, has the most to offer, but He will take nothing less than my wholehearted commitment. Every time He invites me in I have to be willing to loose everything, and most times He takes me places that actually look like I will and then He shows up and I end up more blessed. I use the example of water because God is like a strong undertow and I must let him drag me under and stay relaxed so I can save my energy for the party He is taking me too. If I fight the undertow I can't enjoy the experience and I will not see the doors of opportunity He is inviting me into, all my energy will be used up fighting Him, who I am supposed to trust. I have done this dance with God regularly enough to know I want to...when He invited me on Tuesday I said yes. He did not tell me where we were going or what the cost would be...but I have experienced the thrill of the ride with Him and Oh yeah, I am in, my soul yells. But like usual last night was difficult, don't even know why fully and today I can feel Him moving the stuff around in my soul. It makes me feel insecure, jumpy and distressed....but like I said before I am getting ready to receive another piece of life from the hand of the Creator God.