Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Adventuring with My Man
My husband and I went kayaking together on Saturday. This is a new thing for me, we just went out for a couple hours on a very tame river. I enjoyed myself. This canoeing/kayaking thing is something Jon has loved for a long time, so he was happy to have me along. Its an interesting feeling for me, we have been married for twenty years and we have a pretty good understanding of how our relationship works. But when I set down my old ways and try somethings a little different, I am noticing how many ways I am closed off from my husband. The adventure and freshness has been replaced with duties, resignation and routine... but if I mess with it just a little me and my significant other can look at things just a little different. It reminds me of how things used to be when we first were in love and makes me want a little more of that thrill. But it takes more time and energy to stay there and I must be willing to be disappointed and still keep my heart open and I noticed last night and this morning that I wanted close off, because frankly life is disappointing and we have responsibilities. Like he is off to the auction to buy more grain storage and I have dishes to do, meals to make and a hundred other things... but I think I will keep adventuring with Jon whenever I can cause life is short so it might as well be fun.